无缘

从小，母亲这个两个字对我来说是无缘的。当我懂事以来，"母亲”以不和我的生命有任何关系了。

曾经有朋友问我，你会想找回‘母亲’并于她相认吗？我的答案是：不会。

并不是我恨她，而是我们是无缘的。

我的父亲对她还是有怨恨的，我不能说服他放掉因为我不是当事人，我不能体会夫妻离异的感受。

我是个冷血动物，不会把爱表现出来， 但是，我很爱我的父亲，奶奶，叔叔，姑姑和婶婶们，因为他们含辛茹苦的把我们抚养成人，教导做人的道理，更重要的是他们抚平了我的伤口。

曾经，我问我自己为什么‘她’不要我，这个问题搞得我好痛苦，却没有了答案。

想了好久，就不想了，没有了母，却有了其他亲人的爱，我已经是很幸运的。

有人说母爱是无可代替的，我倒不着么认为：因为母爱是可以被替代的。哈哈哈。

当你没有了那份爱的瞬间，你会很彷徨，无奈，生气，伤心，难过，我可是费了好大的奶力说服自己：我不是一个被母亲遗弃的孩子，而是天注定母亲是我生命的一位过客。一位给了我生命却和我没有交际的陌生人。这样看待事情却让我松了一口闷气。这口闷气待在我的心里好多年，我终于把这口闷气给吐出了。


当然，时间是最好的疗伤药。

谁说单亲家庭的孩子是不幸的， 这样想是错。

琪芳的‘智囊’ ： 开朗，知足的心智才能带你远离悲哀。

哈哈哈，我觉得我好像个老头子，可是老实告诉你：我有了这种‘开通’
我现在过得更快乐，幸福。

琪芳的至理名言：疯疯癫癫的过日子。

Six month of extra stress

Hi hi, long time no see......Lately I had not been able to write my blog.... The first six months of 2012 was a stressful period for me, coz I was assigned with a project and it was a brand new thing to me. It was a brand new experience for me but I don't enjoy that feeling at all. I was then told that this type of project is not something new and it will be considered in part of our working life in the future. This is really easy to be said then done. Everyone have has their own assignment and priorities, the workload itself is enough to burden you down and this project is considered as an extra. BUT we should be positive in our working attitude. " If you don't have overwhelming work assignments, I am very sure that we will be extremely positive"

It is very sad when you are struggling to do your very best in this, someone else whom they are very good at it, prosposed extra theme and work for you. How should I deal with them?  The " who" even wanted report every month on how the project was progressing......... This is totally inhumane.... hahahaha..... Anyway I ignored... Everyone ignored...

I actually learned that.... you are a perfectionist but others are not...... you want to achieve the best outcome...... you gotta work extra hard in a positive mind set, coz you cannot impose the same value on your team members.

It is never easy to do a project that required 6 months of intense discussion, thinking, calculation and data collection.

But anyway, it was a great learning process but I wished I have the chance to work as a member instead of a leader.  Very tiring.

Hahaha, I had finished presentation and finally I can enjoy my next half year in a Stress- Free state....